I don't want to be fat.....but I don't like being hungry. I'm in my own personal mind battle. Yesterday a flood of emotions overcame me. I realized I'm scared of failing, scared of being hungry, disappointed at the state my physical body is in, not attractive, not strong. I have to constantly be in my head telling myself I can do it. I NEED to do it. I HAVE to do it. I WILL do it.
I realized I don't even know what I "really" look like. My whole adult life I have been severly overweight. What will my face look like? What will my figure look like? Will I be attractive? Will I be beautiful? Will my skin sag...and my boobs disappear? Welcome to the conversations that are my internal voice...
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